Hey,hies,elo,

Here I am sharing a new chapter of my week in this blog. Typing this memory of mine made me speechless. I don't what to type,i don't know how to share,i don't know if i could really control my emotion.As all of you know. Muslim peoples are having their Hari Raya celabration. This is where he story starts.

First day of raya; nothing actually happen . I got my haircut which i think i regretted it maybe a bit... :( yeahs, but i gotta admit, the auntie is very bad! She cut it wrongly but it's okay.. I guess i need to wait a lil bit to have my long hair back rite? yerp.... I go for a straightening before going back home to do a short bath and get ready for RAYA... (FYI, i did bath before i went for a haircut!) Bla.. bla.. bla.. after that we went to three houses.. As we had a lil bit of problem going on.. We didn't go to a lot of houses. But,i still try to have fun.. hey,, it's worth a try rite?

Second day, Hrrmmm.. nothing much. We went to two houses i think. yeahs. coz we woke up late and ended up leaving the house at 1 p.m! hehehe.. I'm a sleeping beauty! The schedule was exactly as the first day. Yerp. that describes the RAYAof mind. preety boring? I guess so! Not as exciting as last year or the lsat two years..

Third day, This is the part that I've been wanting to share with you peeps! The third day is when we got up early enough that we left the house at 11a.m We went straight to my Uncle's house andmy uncle bought for us MacDonald meal which is weird for a RAYA breakfast but it is still enjoyable. After that we drove to other Aunt and Uncle houses.. That was the day i got addicted to the story 'Ketika Cinta Bertasbih' The story is nice.. In english i don't know how to translate.. but all i know is the story's amazing! :D Yeah.. so after we went to loads of houses! At niht when we reach oneof my Aunt house.. I cried in front of 'her' yes, i did! I can't believe I'm sooo weak! How can that be happening. I felt like I was the weakest gerl when I was crying. Can you imagine.. Me, crying? never happen in public much.. 'She' wiped my tears away and she shared with me a story that i can't even believe that it's happening to 'her'. Then what happens next is that she said, "Iffah,I'm gonna leave him.... I'm gonna take 'lil sis' with me. I can't stand living with him. I cannot be around him. He gives me problem all the tie. There is too many secrets he is hiding from me. Now,everything is showing itself. I need to turn a new leaf to live my life normally. Iffah,forgive k?"


After that,all i could was nod when i was still crying.. :( I LOVE YOU SO 'her'!!! Hope you are doing fine now!!

Urs4everandever,
Iffah

Hey,Hies,ello

Let's start with a visit to my mum's place. Tuesday, my mom fetched my brother and I at the MRT and we went to the Woodlands National Library. Why did I waste my time at the library for? Of course, to read Novels.. I borrowed 3 books. The 1st book is from Aidil Khalid: Bila Nysrah Kata Tak Mahu (When Nysrah Say NO). The 2nd is from Nass Alina Noah: Er... Excuse Me. I know I didn't type out the third book. It's cause I don't like that book. Very Slloooowwwwww.... YERP! So I decide on not reading the third book. hehes.

Then today,I want to a salon to get my hair cut. My mom and I planned to rebond my hair but I suddenly felt the urge to change my image and so.. I cut my hair short. You would not believe how short it is.. ouh.... Shucks! I My mom said I look like some lost Japanese girl in Singapore. Don't forget the 'blur' look that my face possess.. hehe! It's not FUNNY! Now,I can dress up myself like a JaPaGi. Japanese Girl.. Wakakakaka!

Met 'her' just now and yesterday too. She needed a listening ear as always and me, as a friend (a best one!) had to lend my ear to 'her'. She was talking about the way the people treated 'her'. Just now,she told me she can't take it anymore. Who can? Nobody! So,she told me, she's leaving them. Ouh, GOD i was depressed but if that is 'her' decision and it's final! I can't do anything. It's 'her' life. Whatever i can do is support and support every single day! I can't take the way these people treat her like. What do you think she is? A PET? Even you don't treat your PET that way. What the HECK?!

I wish there is nobody out there who will make a mess in 'her' life after this problem is solve. I hope so! I want to!

That is all I got to say. I'll update on anything that i feel I have to and I can't take it alone! To 'her'...... I LOVE YOU!

Urs4everandever,
Iffah

Hey,Hies,ello,

As MOST of you know (i think i made em up because most of you probably dunno).. Alexandra hospital. The kind of hospital where there is no air condition and the spaces between beds are so small that you will definitely complain on how cramp and stuffy the ward is.. The hospital in other words is OLD. yes, that's it. Well before I continue with anything. I know some are curious of the reason of me being in a Hospital. Even if you are not KayPO (kepo), i still will write it in the blog. My grandmother was warded to the hospital because of her chest pain that made it hard for her to breathe. The worst part was, she was working that time and she made her OIC panic-stricken-ed by the sudden 'I Cannot Breathe' period. She was rush to the Hospital soon after. Please do pray for her health yeah? And now back to the Hospital story. What I hate the most about Alexandra Hospital is the 'Maggi Mee' Auntie.. My brother called her that after the incident where she called us both to approach her. She reached into the pocket of her uniform (hospital uniform) and she said "Boy ah.. Go downstairs and buy for me Maggi Mee ah..". My brother and I froze for a while but i quickly responded NO. Well, I had to.. It's not that I don't want to help her,but,she's a patient. If she was not allowed to eat anything with MSG then i better not help. Sometimes patient can be very rude and stubborn right?

After that incident.. The name 'Maggi Mee ' Auntie was stuck on my head.. Anytime she pass my grandmother's bed, my brother will shrug my shoulder and called out "Maggi Mee Auntie!" and we both will laugh. I know it's kinda rude but what's wrong with having fun once in a while right? right? ok,maybe NOT. My family stayed there until it was passed visiting hours. Did i mention that 'Maggi Mee' Auntie was crying and shouting the whole time after 7p.m? She shouted vulgarities and cried loudly.. She was also muttering when she shout. Shouting out how she wanted to go home and she misses home. My grandmother smiled and calmly said "I want to go back home too. Because I don't want to look like a crazy woman I just sit quietly here. 5 more days to Raya. Who doesnt want to go back home?" As she said that, I smiled too. Don't know why suddenly I think about my future if I was a mother or even a grandmother... Wondering if my kids will take care of me sincerely like how i cared for them.. :D

After that,we went back home and decide to rest BIG time. hehex! HELLO! Even though sitting in the Hospital is not so tiring but helping my mum take care of my lil sis is troublesome. She wont stop crying! Facebook, I'm getting tired of it now. Now, I'm here to rest nad blog about today. Hey! I'll keep my blog updated yeah? Anytime when I'm free that is.

p/s:I didn't realise I posted so much today.. hehehhe.. :D Hope you still enjoy the post though.

to 'HER': I will always hear your cries, support you and be there for you. ANYTIME! I promised! I will be there for you just like when you are there for me EVERYTIME! LOVE you! xoxo

Urs4everandever,
Iffah

Hey,hies,ello

What I did today was simple. I don't know if i really enjoyed it or just some other peace days of my life. I was wondering how she is feeling now. Sorry, I'm not currently there with you for you.. If you want to cry.. Cry dearest but that won't change anything. Everything has happened. It's going to be Raya soon and i hoped we can enjoy ourselves that day. Ask for forgiveness.. Reminisce on the the times where you did wrong and just take this problems as a punishment to the wrongs you've done. I didn't sleep quite well yesterday, thinking about your ways in handling life problems.. You've got Patience. I salute you for that. I respect you.. I don't know if i can handle those situation. Maybe not,maybe now,I'll be trying to kill myself!

Let's just move on to the fun part now. I don't want to get emotionally stressed out!

I still can't believe that I did not make it through the Audition. But like what my Dad told me: "Let bygones be Bygones, as it will just give a negative impact on you. Think about the future is better and wiser!" ooohhh.... Words that made me forget about the past that I've gone through. Words that made me the person who I am now. I hoped every single person will not keep a single hatred yeah?

I am still going on a process called 'ReHab' because.. It's not because of my misbehavior. Don't get the wrong idea.. It's a rehab on my Laziness.. Yerp, just because I'm Lazy. Imagine how my results turned out to be BAD! okay,maybe not s bad. I'm dramatic.. but it's not as good.. Is that even the right word? hrrmm...

About ECha,I don't think I should continue. I want to live my life not worrying about anything. So, you are not allowed to ask or tell anything about him unless i bring his matter up, k? I don't want to go through the past life. I want to be the girl who sit at the side with few little friends. The girl who doesn't talk much but listen. The girl who sits at the canteen table and prefers waiting for her friends to join than she joins with anyone. The girl who doesn't care about what people say as she knows. This Is Her Life! The girl who accepts advice but neglects insults.. The girl who everyone dreams of at times when time get rough. The girl who sings her heart out when she felt she hadto or she just wants to.. Lastly and importantly, The girl who everone LOVES!

Urs4everandever,
Iffah

hey,hies,ello!

I'm wondering if i can take anymore of it! Problem arise everytime when i feel calm.. Can i feel calm when someone has been talking nasty thing about someone that is very close to me? I have the rights to get angry,do i? I always questioned myself, do i need help with my problem? I tried to be strong but honestly, I'm NOT! With my fullest effort, I had to be strong.. It was a DIFFICULT task.. I thought i couldn't make it this far.. I thought i would just cry all the time.. But,this far is considered good right? All the moments where i thought i was strong sink in when i poured my heart out today.. Witness by SNTL.. I LOVE you so much sister.. Thank You 4 being there and trying to make me laugh. It worked right? I'm not sure.. I don't feel like even visiting her sometimes because i can't stand the way she cries.. The way she throws out all her feelings at night.. The way she wanted to be ok in front of people when every moment she live,she feels like dying.. can she really take all the things people talk about her? She did do something wrong last time but, everyone make mistakes and what right does he have to punish her like that?

SNTL told me,"Don't think too much about it. You have End-Of-Year exam coming soon and you should be studying. That is my advice. Pray for your 'her' as i know you won't forget her.. I'm always here if you want to share anythin." What can i say after that? I nodded and walk lifelessly. I don't even remember where i had wanted to go. I'm confused now.. They have no right to critisize or insult anything. If they don't know the truth, they had to investigate it first but they did not. Nothing.. Short-minded people.. Anymore word i hear from any of you people's mouth. I SWEAR i will SLAP that face of yours! I don't care if your tall,short,big sized,small sized,Old,young or even innocent looking. I had enough from you people! I cannot take itanymore. I don't think im the only one. I'm sure 'she' will do the same thing if she could!

Yet again, Am i that brave to slap others? Am i going to get anything if i did slap the person? Would it change a thing?

On second thoughts, "no..." now, I'm sighing because i can't do anything for her but she did a lot for me.. I LOVE YOU 'her'...

Urs4everandever,
Iffah

heys..

A very good-afternoon-ramadha-day to all muslims and peeps out there... How are cha? well,me? im off the hook of fun.. I am very bored dis year.. I am very out of my league.. I dunno why,i suddenly felt an urge to hate dis year... urrgghh... wat? yeahs... Can you imagine such a boring life.. any advice to keep up huh?

As i heard from my CLOSE... VERY close friends... They tot i became more secretive this year.. really? you sure? Did i no tell u guys abt my problems? hrmm.. i nid to share much.. or maybe not. I dunno how to express.. ven by sitting here blogging while my bro revising and my mom and lil sis sleeping.. i feel so over-bored... I nid to study later.. ouh,stress!

My wishlist for today and tomorrow and the day after tomorrow is to go to the LIbraRy!! I wanna borrow books.. Maybe by dat,no more... boredom.. i cud juz read books and fantasize it rite? U think so?

Do i look like i have any problems written on my face? is there? if there is.. i wudn't want dat to happen. tell me if i do.. so i wont make anybody feel sympathy.. hurhur... :D No Worries kay dear all! I am OKAY! XD

Happy 4ver And always

Urs4everandever,
Iffah

hey again!

11:39 p.m
WOW! A Three Days Straight Post.. Amazin! hehex! nvr tot i wud really update blog this soon.. i am sooo bored.. its 11.40p.m now.. wonderin if i shud slip or listen to music... hrrmmm... i am going to talk abt today.. well.. did nuthin much. at home wif bro alone.. me,wif d computer.. my bro wif PS2.. ouh,enjoyed much.. I was listening to darn loads of songs.. wondering if i shud change the playlist here.. coz the songs getting boring.. Yerp.. BIG-Time-Boring !!!

11:42p.m
Now,i am thinking wat to update all of you.. i cud juz tell abt my school life.. school.. erm well.. boring? yeah.. dunno when i wanna start like really CONCENTRATE on my studies.. do REVISION properly.. OMG! God,pls hell me now.. Scared i might fail the streamng years.. let me have the interest to study.. pls oh pls... :(

11:42 p.m
browsing thru some FB profile pic coz there is nth to do

11:55
That was a longgg browsing.. so i guess now.. i'll check on Abraham wundering if he post anything yet.. especially the ones on Friday... wanna noe wether Ms Desouza showed up.. how was his audition.. I feel sad 4 you.. Rlly... no kid ard! I am hoping there sum pityness for you from dat gerl who suddenly she got no mood for singing and left you there wondering wat to do.. she shud have said it earlier rite? hrrm... watever it is.. You Will Get The Chance.. I am very2 sure abt it Ham..

11:58
Now,i am goin to stop the post and den check out on Abraham and den check out on 3 of my most fav author; Nazurah Aisha & Hlovate & Nasz !!! Den... im goin on FB & after dat.. SLEEP!!!

By the time it'll be ard 1 A.M.. YAY!!!

Urs4everandever,
Iffah