hey,hies,ello!

I'm wondering if i can take anymore of it! Problem arise everytime when i feel calm.. Can i feel calm when someone has been talking nasty thing about someone that is very close to me? I have the rights to get angry,do i? I always questioned myself, do i need help with my problem? I tried to be strong but honestly, I'm NOT! With my fullest effort, I had to be strong.. It was a DIFFICULT task.. I thought i couldn't make it this far.. I thought i would just cry all the time.. But,this far is considered good right? All the moments where i thought i was strong sink in when i poured my heart out today.. Witness by SNTL.. I LOVE you so much sister.. Thank You 4 being there and trying to make me laugh. It worked right? I'm not sure.. I don't feel like even visiting her sometimes because i can't stand the way she cries.. The way she throws out all her feelings at night.. The way she wanted to be ok in front of people when every moment she live,she feels like dying.. can she really take all the things people talk about her? She did do something wrong last time but, everyone make mistakes and what right does he have to punish her like that?

SNTL told me,"Don't think too much about it. You have End-Of-Year exam coming soon and you should be studying. That is my advice. Pray for your 'her' as i know you won't forget her.. I'm always here if you want to share anythin." What can i say after that? I nodded and walk lifelessly. I don't even remember where i had wanted to go. I'm confused now.. They have no right to critisize or insult anything. If they don't know the truth, they had to investigate it first but they did not. Nothing.. Short-minded people.. Anymore word i hear from any of you people's mouth. I SWEAR i will SLAP that face of yours! I don't care if your tall,short,big sized,small sized,Old,young or even innocent looking. I had enough from you people! I cannot take itanymore. I don't think im the only one. I'm sure 'she' will do the same thing if she could!

Yet again, Am i that brave to slap others? Am i going to get anything if i did slap the person? Would it change a thing?

On second thoughts, "no..." now, I'm sighing because i can't do anything for her but she did a lot for me.. I LOVE YOU 'her'...

Urs4everandever,
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